Don't Blink...

Yes I ripped off the title of this post from Kenny Chesney. Since he is my boyfriend I'm sure he will not mind.

Here are the thoughts that have been running through my head this week (in no particular order):

I'm fat--I really need to lose about 15-20lbs. Maybe I'll join Weight Watchers or maybe I will just get my sorry self to the gym.

Why are my kids always sick? Logan has a virus and now he has thrush. Kylie is still runny but feeling better. Could we please stop getting sick? Please?

I really need some new clothes and shoes. I haven't bought casual clothes in so long because I would buy work clothes and then wear crap at home. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror at the mall today and gasped...two words. HOT MESS

I really do not feel like throwing two birthday parties for Kylie but since I am committed to both (one in TN, and on in GA) I will do it.....but I don't like it.

Then today my friend Brett calls me on the way to the airport. He tells me that an old co-worker/friend from college who has had cancer for a while is in the hospital and not expected to make it. I haven't talked to her in years. I think I saw her one time when I was in graduate school and that was about 8 years ago. However, the news just stopped me in my tracks. Later another friend sent me a text that she had passed away. He was a very close friend of hers and my heart just aches for him and her family.

Tonight I held Logan a little closer as he fell to sleep. I blew Kylie one extra kiss when I put her to bed. I even gave her ice cream before bed time. I took the time to sit at the dinner table and ask Eric how his day was and I even had a beer with him instead of running upstairs to get on the computer or have alone time. I didn't want alone time tonight, I just wanted to see and touch my family and be grateful for the time we have together.